Dear God,

Right now I need you to forgive me. I'm sorry that I need your forgiveness because I know deep down I have a lot to be thankful for but sometimes, as much as I hate to admit it, I am selfish. I know I have a lot going for me, but still with all that I have, there's something that I want.
Please read this note that I have pinned up in my room here and know that sometimes all we need is that one person. I understand that I'm fucked up - boy do I ever understand that - but what I wouldn't give for that one other fucked up person in my life right now. God, I'm tired of being lonely.
And I totally understand that whole 'giving a person struggles because you know they can handle it', but I'm over being the one who can “handle” it. When will you open your eyes and see that I'm not really that strong person that everybody sees? It's just facade, a face I put on for everybody to see. I don't know... maybe I think that if they can see that someone like me can get through hard times, then maybe they can too. I'm so over being this person. Maybe I'd like to be a different person for once. For once I'd like to go to bed at night and not have to cry myself to sleep and not have to reassure myself because I feel like I'm the only person I have to depend on.
I totally understand that right now you probably have a whole lot of other people to deal with, but please, one day, remember that I'm here waiting. Please don't forget about me. I'm still here. As much as I sometimes wish I wasn't.

Please. Remember me.